;FAKEDD

2012-02-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

what a great end to my week!!!
hahaha.
okay well, went for the Mentors interview.
and yeapp i think i screwed it up. haisssss.
and then......we had to go through the second phase which was Evaluation session.
i had no idea that session requires you to run around the school with no breaks given.
wahhh i swear mcm nk pengsan tdi lari saner lari sini.
but it was super super fun i swear. Group B was awesometasticbombastic!
hahahha and the 'teach me how to dougie' guy was the highlight of the day!
funny like crap omg.
hahahhaa.
i just hope that i will get selected to be a mentor.
if not right........sedih rabak punye.
okay anyway, YEAY TP for being the champion for IVP Games!
:D

2012-02-09T20:03:00.002+08:00

Highlight of the crazy week: i touched a cat(IKRRRRR!!!)
hahahhaa ohmy totally proud of myself.
it's just a small thing but it means so much to me, i swear.
this is only the first step!
and oh, acmv test was a killer.
hmm almost done with all of the presentations except for cnmgnt.
haiyayayyaya.

2012-02-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

i cant even get an easy thing done.
everything's so stressful right now.
and it hasnt been a good week for me.
nope, i dont like this at all.
been breaking down a lot.
idk if it's making me stronger or not helping at all.
but nonetheless, school's taking over my life.

2012-02-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

“Katakanlah, ‘wahai hambaku yang telah melampaui batas pada diri mereka, janganlah kalian putus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah menghapus dosa semuanya, Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Pengampun dan Maha Penyayang” [Az Zumar: 53]

all i can say is that, I SURVIVED today.
it was really a bad bad bad day for me.
with presentation, role play and lab work on the same day.
& i'm just so disappointed with myself for maths quiz.
that's my last chance to score a full marks for quizzes. and nooooo,
i found out i made ONE CARELESS mistake.
woahhh. so frustrated alrdy right, then right, i cried.
outside of jap class somemore, before the role play.
fuhhhhh it was so overwhelming for me.
but Alhamdulillah, everything went well.
it's alright, i make sure i check and do the maths paper slowly for exam.
ahhh idk why it's so easy for me to feel so emotional over littlest things.
:/

P.S. I'm glad i get a chance to see you just now, mr d.

2012-02-06T15:16:00.003+08:00

“Marry the person you know can uplift you morally and who will always remind you that Allah is sufficient for you in times of trials.”

today i found out that the house opposite my room has two cats!
(okay the sentence structure like funny)
ohmy both so cute, i can just stare at them the whole day. but from a far ofcourse.
hahaha but yes.
and oh this morning, my stomach like went through a catastrophe like that leh.
adui.
& yes, i hope everything will be okay tmrw.
the presentations, the lab work and the jap role play.
Insya'Allah amin!

2012-02-05T21:34:00.002+08:00

"Bila baju melayu bertemu baju kurung, biarlah hanya untuk yang halal."

it's so hard to fight the evil within myself.
:/

2012-02-03T19:48:00.002+08:00

CAN I NOT BE SO CHUBBY OMG?
can i just eat eat eat and not get fat?
can i? can i? can i?
i guess not.

2012-02-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH.

everything's so rushed now.
project deadlines, upcoming semester exam.
FUHHHHH STRESS HABIS.
but its okay its okay its okay.
senyum2 selalu(macam yasir hanapi)
^^)

2012-02-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

hahaha another attempt to wear the hijab using pashmina.
nyahhh. it just doesn't suit my face(because of the chubbiness of my cheeks)
hahaha okay this is not what the tutorials taught me.
okay so yes, it's wednesday.
and nope, nothing new, still stress with school.

2012-01-31T22:27:00.003+08:00

school school school.

ohmy it's only Tuesday and i can't wait for the weekends.
school's been really hectic lately. sigh.
and i'm missing my girls so much.
it feels like ages since we last met up and just chillax together.
can we just get this semester over and done with already?
:/

2012-01-30T20:10:00.003+08:00

Not everything that you want in life you can get it.
and thats alright.
because Allah always has a better plan for you.
just put your trust in Him and everything will be alright.

& at that moment when i saw you,
it didnt hurt anymore.
my heart didnt race like it used to.
and thats perfectly alright with me.

2012-01-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

take a leap of faith.

it's been a great weekend.
sadly the thought of monday ruins it all.
starting tmrw, it'll be a busy2 week.
nyaaaaahhhh i just want waffles and icecreams and cookies and cakes and cream puffs and icecreams and waffles and cookies and cream puffs.
yeah.

2012-01-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

my stomach has been feeling so weird since afternoon.
and till now i've been burping non-stop(it's the 'masuk angin' burp)
sigh. and i don't feel good at all.
tried eating maggi mee but i could't even finish it.
idk why it's so easy for my perut to masuk angin. sigh.
& it's scary also.
because the last time this kinda thing happened,
my heart will start to beat fast and i almost fainted.
the last meal i had was at 12. so yeahh the next meal was at 7?
yeap no wonder, masuk angin.
but i don't feel hungry :/ haiyayayayaya
okay nehmind i just need to get all the angin out!
burp burp burp.
& oh, i really really really wanna have a kitten.
but firstly, i really really really wanna touch a cat.
gahhhhh.

2012-01-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

i need to mend my own heart.

can't wait to get this semester over and done with.
grr.

2012-01-24T23:11:00.001+08:00

i've done my part for the facom project. yeay me!!
& myohmy, exam timetable's out.
ONE MORE MONTH KAY NO KIDDING.
and im really struggling with all the current modules.
foooooh let this be a test for me.
must.work.hard.

2012-01-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

"Sesungguhnya saya sudah menjumpai apa yang dimaksudkan dengan jodoh dari Allah. Saya nak jadikan awak yang halal buat saya, Syu."
- Syurga Cinta

i think prosperity burger is like the best burger ever.
(besides ramly burger ofcourse)
hahaha. i'm at aunt's place now, since cousin asked me to sleepover her house.
okay lah fair lah hor.
anyway, i'm so stressed out with school.
there are upcoming quizzes and also datelines for projects.
sigh. nevermind, work hard now.
must.fight.procrastination.and.laziness!!!

2012-01-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

head over heels.

it's been such a relaxing sunday.
relatives came over and chillaxed at my house.
and not forgetting, i ate a lot today.
i'm only chewing something or munching or something. haiyayayayaa
and yes, i've not started on anything related to school.
sigh. ):

2012-01-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

SOCCER MADNESS.

okay so it was a pretty nerve-wrecking match between Lions XII & Sabah.
well congratulations to Lions for winning the match, 1-0.
but then again, during the match i swear i kept on screaming here and there.
mum and I were seriously hugging pillows and shouting TIDAKKK,CEPATT, NOOO!!
hahaha. but really i think that the sabah players were very aggressive(esp that guy who was given a red card)
but anyway, highlight of the match: YASIR CUT HIS HAIR and got kicked in the butt.
hahahaha kesian2. but really so cute.
and my oh my i think izwan is such an awesometasticbombastic keeper.
no doubt.

alright enough of soccer.
anyway, proud of myself because i finally cleaned up my room
especially my bed. changed the bed sheet to the one that mum bought.
soooo pretty i loikeee. hahaha. and i must say it hasn't been a productive saturday when it comes to school work. because up till now, i did nothing for facom project.
and yes, facom's been getting on my nerves lately(besides hcsplan).
i just dont know why i hate facom so much. it's so hard for me to understand all those theories and stuffs. like whattt? =.=
haisss. okay anyway, breathe.
i'll get it over and done with soon. Insha Allah.
POSITIVE MIND
DON'T GIVE UP!
:D

2012-01-20T20:12:00.001+08:00

“dan wanita-wanita yang baik adalah untuk laki-laki yang baik dan laki-laki yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula).” (Al-Nur 24 :26)

i've so many things to say.
yet, it's all bottled up.
only Allah knows it all.

2012-01-19T21:04:00.003+08:00

1000th post

because you can't always depend on people.
but you can turn to Allah for He will always be there.
and He will never disappoint you.

been too caught up with school work.
it has been ages since i last met up with my girls.
miss them so much!
sad sangat didnt celebrate mahirah's birthday with her. tak tau pon bile nak klua.
birthday hanis pon dapat celebrate skejap aje. tu pon shad wasn't there to join us.
hais. school's been giving me such a hard time.
with the assignments and projects, i'm definitely stressing out.
but well yes, no one said it'll be easy.
haiyaa everyday i'm always tired.

school aside,
i've been following up with the new series at tv3, Gemersik Kalbu.
apparently it is from a novel that i've read before from my favourite author, Anis Ayuni. & ofcourse, Gemersik Kalbu is my favourite novel of all time.
oh my the book's definitely better than the series.
but well i must say that the series is not bad either.
watching it makes me want to read the whole novel again.
but then again, where got time?
(:

2012-01-18T22:46:00.005+08:00

to my beautiful january babies <3<3<3
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!
you guys have been the best girlfriends ever.
always there for me when i need a listening ear.
i thank God for blessing me with such wonderful bestfriends.
& could not ask for more (:
May Allah bless you girls always, and semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki.
& ofcourse, i hope our friendship lasts till forever and ever.
i love you girls so much ♥♥♥

2012-01-16T21:21:00.001+08:00

"I was so far from You
Yet to me You were always so close."

2012-01-15T13:54:00.003+08:00

"Wanita yang solehah tersenyum dalam kesusahan, mendapat kekuatan melalui doa, menenangkan hati melalui istighfar, dan mendidik diri melalui solat yang khusyu'. Susah itu tarbiyyah, sabar itu indah..."

Akanku cuba untuk meningkatkan imanku agar mendapat kusyu' yang sepenuhnya,
Insya'Allah.

2012-01-13T22:42:00.003+08:00

FOCUS AMALINA, FOCUS.

i'm gonna put aside projects for a while.
i just want to chillax this weekend.
oh wow, so many things need to be done. and i swear i dont know where to start.
oh my.
and there are upcoming quizzes too.
okay keep calm. hopefully i'm able to focus on school next week.
yaiiiikkksss!

2012-01-12T20:13:00.002+08:00

"Dan bantulah aku untuk memperbaiki diriku,
Agar aku kukuh dalam mencari cinta-Mu."

if i continue to laugh2 in class,
i'm going to have difficulties in my studies.
errr like dohhhhh.
hahaha! okay so yes, my friends and i laughed a lot just now.(and i know laughing too much isnt good, based on experience)
but we just can't help it. well i tried to pay attention for acmv,
did catch a few things. but other than that, we just keep on laughing(about all the nonsense you can think of, like: "tak tahu lah ni soalan bodoh ke tak")
hahahaha! okay so yes, gosh i have very nice lecturers but then again pity them because most of the time the students(i am no exception) do not listen to whatever they're talking. gahh feels so bad but then again.....maybe they should consider conducting a fun lesson? hahah.
okay and yes, i'm having difficulties with Revit. it's like dejavu.
it's like Cads all over again i tell you. haissss. well i just hope that i'll remain as calm as possible when dealing with revit & the teacher(she's even unsure about the software.)
ahhh okay, i've so much to do. just don't know where to begin.
yaiiiikssss!

2012-01-11T22:31:00.003+08:00

for you i bleed myself dry.

finally im done with hcsplanning part A!
it took me like ages. myohmy. Alhamdulillah(:
anyway, i think this week's been super tiring.
and oh yes, maths quiz kinda killed me just now.
i totally forgotten how to do question that has implicit and partial differentiation.
it took me some time before i finally get to figure it out.
pheeeew~
well im expecting a more stressful days ahead.
with upcoming quizzes and datelines for assignments, it'll be a hell of a semester.
nyahhhhhh.

2012-01-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

because right,
im always tired.
and im always stressed out.
but right, i'm not going to give up.
never.

2012-01-09T20:54:00.002+08:00

it'll be worth it.

ohmy it's a tiring start to the week.
im almost done with hcsplan! i can say that today's quite a productive day.
hehehe.
and oh, i was enjoying my tissue prata from breadboard until the cat had to wake up
and decide to play 'catching' with me.
okay actually i was the one who tried to run away from the cat.
and yes, i didnt finish my tissue prata ):
the cat is sooo cute i swear but sigh. but the eyes super scary actually.
hahaha okay anyway,
Olevels results are out huh?
to those who have done well, congratulations! but to those who didnt, it's okay, dont lose hope!
(:

2012-01-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

oh im so bipolar.

SO ANNOYED WITH A LOT OF THINGS NOW.
WHY JUST WHY WHY WHY
haisssss.

2012-01-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

“If women knew how men perceived them when they look at them, they would cover themselves with iron armor.”
— Ayatullah Khameini (RA)

found this beautiful quote from facebook.
anyway, the tp open house is finally over!!!!!
ohmy i cant describe how tired i am right now.
but anyway it has been a really fun experience for me.
(:

2012-01-06T20:36:00.001+08:00

super exhausted from the open houses.
gosh i didnt know it'll be this exhausting.
yeah it's been fun so far but cant take it lah so tiring!
and im still not done with hcsplanning's project.
WAHHHH )':

2012-01-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

endurance.

everything's going to be worth it.
Insya'Allah.

2012-01-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

always stay positive.

first day of school after the term break was really suckish.
hcsplan had to ruin my mood for the whole day.
my oh my, we need to redraw a lot of the crap.
really tested my patience just now. hais ):
it's okay, i accept this as a test.
anyway, received results for some of the term tests. hais ):
and oh, im so happy for abang because he finally get to finish up his assignments.
kesian sgt kat dier sebab dier nye laptop rosak.
Alhamdulillah, he managed to finish it.
i need to be patient like him and stay focus.
yeappppp.
im just hoping that the week will get better.
Insya'Allah.

2011-12-30T19:49:00.002+08:00

these negative thoughts are so annoying
:/
& yes, the sweet cravings are back.
aiyaya!

2011-12-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

MAKE BELIEVE.
you're too good at playing pretend, you even convinced yourself.

because going out with a swollen left eye wasn't cool, not a single bit.
& ofcourse it was extremely awkward. only God knows what i was feeling at that time.
but then again, i had fun today. i swear i was super bloated, mcm 3 months pregnant.
hahaha. okay anyway, im forever doing the HCSplan prototypical plan.
sigh, it's really getting on my nerves.

2011-12-27T17:33:00.002+08:00

“Patience is of two types: perseverance in the face of that which you despise, and enduring restraint against that which you love.”
— Imam Ali (as)

hi.
trip back to melaka was an awesometasticbombastic one.
finally get to meet my lovely nieces and nephew <3
it'll be even more fun if everyone from dad's side were there.
and yeap, i must say we make a really good avatar family.
hehehe.

2011-12-23T19:49:00.003+08:00

HAHAH SO EMBARRASSING.(you watch out ah austin!)

anyway, will be going to melaka tonight.
hopefully it'll be a fun getaway, Insya'Allah.
(:

The Script - For The First Time (HD Version)

2011-12-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

i heard the live version of this last night.
i swear it was the perfect ending to my day.
and to add on to it, siglapians and ex-siglapian were trying to trend #siglapmemories on twitter. i swear i had a good time reading those tweets. come to think of it, i do miss siglap a lot. reminiscing the good and bad times, i think secondary school days were really awesome.
enough said.

2011-12-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

keep moving forward.

hi.
today was an awesometasticbombastic day.
chillaxed with ashvitas at my house.
we practically did nothing besides watching movie and stalking pretty girls(sumpah self-esteem dah -0)
but the thing is, those girls have brains and they're so good looking
ah whatever, i'm just thankful for everything that i have. Alhamdulillah.
and i'm still not done with hcsplanning assignment(it'll probably take me ages)
holidays + assignments= eewl.

because i'm hard to understand.
and i appreciate those who still stay with me, bear with me and are so patient with me.
thank you. <3

2011-12-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

8.) Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

500 days of summer.

2011-12-20T00:16:00.001+08:00

half-heartedly.

i did a terrible mistake.
i kinda went back to my past.
and i just cant help but to hate myself for that.
what was i thinking?
right now i'm feeling so..idk?
ah sigh.

2011-12-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

but i never told you,
what i should have said.
no, i never told you.
i just held it in.

2011-12-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

always eating in the car because got cat.
sighh.
oh this was taken in langkawi.
ahh miss that place <3

2011-12-18T10:09:00.001+08:00

because i'll miss you like crazy.
but i'll be okay.
always will.
(:

2011-12-17T07:13:00.001+08:00

HELLOOOO TERM BREAKKKKK! :D

finallyyyy the most anticipated day has arrived. hahahha.

it was a suckish end to my term test but well icecream made everything better. yeappppp.

one thing that i'm sure of is that i've been spending too much on food. :O

but thats okay.

hehehe.

okay even though the term break is here, i still have to do assignments(IKRRRR -.-)

blearghhh.

2011-12-15T12:23:00.000+08:00

"She wanted something to happen- something, anything: she did not know what"

-Kate Chopin-

okay so let's not talk about facom.

totally drained out all of my brain cells.

and now i have no mood to study contract management.

ahhh dang it.

come on one more paper to go before the TERM BREAK!

nyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

oh2 btw,

dad's like the cutest person ever <3

he went to ntuc THREE TIMES today. and guess what?

on the third visit to ntuc, he found his comb.

HAHAHAH ohmyy how cute is that.

well got hikmahnya why he went to ntuc three times. hahaha.

gah so cute *pinch pinch*

& yes, dad's like the cutest shopper ever i swear.

hahahaha. :D

2011-12-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

if procrastination is an exam,

i sure will score an A for it.

ah sigh FACOM why are you giving me such a hard time?

haizhaizhaiz.

2011-12-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

i don't have the words to make you feel better,

but i'll always be here for you.

♥

2011-12-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

THREE MORE TO GO!!

even though maths was such a killer,

i will not let it affect me.

gonna focus on other subjects. woohoo cant wait for the term break!!!

2011-12-12T00:45:00.000+08:00

two weeks break, come quick!!

hi.

so yes term test officially starts today.(in about 14hours time? hahha)

gahh im so scared for maths(and the other subjects yes)

i just hope that i wont be careless(its soooo frustrating i swear!)

must.check.properly.

& i think im going to have problem solving B3. i mean i cant even do past years' questions.

sighhhh.

2011-12-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

"He (man) asks, ' When is the Day of Resurrection?' So when the vision is dazzled. And the moon darkens. And the sun and moon are joined." (75:6-9)

Subhanallah!

the eclipse is happening now and i could see it with my own eyes.

but then again, it's scary how it is one of the signs that the Day of Judgement is nearing.

reflecting on myself and how much sin i've done.

it's really scary to think that my life can just end within seconds.

I havent been a good Muslim. I keep on disobeying Him.

and worst still, i dont know if my prayers are accepted or not. :/

anyway,

today was a fun day.

went to eat at Swensen's at ion orchard with nurul and atika.

so yes, there is the ice cream buffet! oh yummmmmms.

ate like a lot!! so bloated i swear. hahaha.

and ofcourse it was worth it, really really worth it!

2011-12-09T18:13:00.001+08:00

"A rose must remain with the sun and the rain or its lovely promise won't come true."
Ray Evans

okay so term test starts on monday.

i really cant wait to get it over and done with.

but then again, there are new assignments given.

mygod, there are cngmt and hcsplanning assignments!!! you kidding me?

haiz. saborrrr ajerlah.

sometimes i just feel like giving up on school.

but then again,

" So, verily with every difficulty, there is relief:(Qur'an 94:5)"

2011-12-07T22:54:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah(:

This is by far the best birthday ever!

thank you to those who've wished me through fb, text or personally.

& thank you to those who've celebrated my birthday with me today.

& for all the presents! love them all!

p/s:thank you so much for everything mr denial! ♥

2011-12-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

hi.

hcsplanning lab test was dsjfhsdhfsdf.

but then again, i managed to do something without being angry or what.

and then it was jap test.

omg. everything was alright until after the paper when i checked the answers.

enough said.

p/s: guess who's going to be 17?(like finally)

2011-12-05T18:03:00.000+08:00

okay i know i should be memorising instead of ranting.

but seriously, 50 questions within 30mins? YOU SERIOUS?!

and memorising all those topics for vocab and culture is already bad enough kaykaykay!!!

yes i'll be having jap quiz tomorrow.

not funneh ):

this is even harder than i thought.

the vocab is already enough to kill my brain cells.

enough said.

2011-12-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

i told mum that i'm done with my report.

but then again i said to her, the report like so merepek.

and guess what mum said.

hahah.

she was like, quality not important as long as there's a product.

HAHAH omg my mum super cute.

hahaha okay so yes im finally done with the report.

ofcourse i did it like anyhow only because i swear i dont know how to explain.

i think i'll probably edit it some other day(if, i actually will bother to look at it again)

well anyway,

im seriously screwed for term tests.

i mean, i only can depend on maths. like woahh definitely gonna see a major drop in gpa this sem.

HAIZ.

2011-12-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

nak yang ni for my birthday can?
oh cannot eh?
okay.....

i want this for my birthday also can?
hahahhaa okay like real only kan padahal takot.
but tsk it's so cuteee. alermak gerammm sngt!
haiz.

2011-12-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

ibu: adik nak aper untuk bdae?

me: adik nak ipad

ibu: tu ibu dah belikan brand freedom.

HAHAHA

me: adik nak itouch

ibu: later i touch you okay

hahahaha omg ibu -.-

me: adik nak ipod

ibu: jom kite pegi, naik 53

HAHAHA IBUUUUUU -.-

okay so i really don't know what i want for my bdae.

told mum i have everything already.

then she's like okay then i dont have to buy for you anything.

but well its true, i've got everything already.

2011-12-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

the conversation means so much to me.

i'm glad we're still talking.

miss you so much babe (:

really hope to meet up with you soon!

p/s: because blood is thicker than water.

2011-12-02T17:06:00.000+08:00

highlight of the week: waffle with dark chocolate ice cream from bistro.

just what i needed.(:

& oh, get to eat kfc also because we participated in the engine 2oth

hehehe. ate a lotttt today. and ofcourse i ate bika's crackers(all time fav)

i know im putting on weight but i dont care,i love food okay.

and im so stress out with school also mahh. so must eateateateat!

& oh, you still owe me TWO icecreams. yeap.

2011-12-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

i'm definitely stressing out with school work.

the cngmt assignment is definitely taking up most of my time.

its so annoying that i dont know how to explain the claims and all that.

and next two weeks will be the start of term tests.

im definitely not prepared for it at all!

yeah i have next week to start on my revisions but im scared i can't manage my time well.

gosh im so stress about everything.

i know i should take things easy and all but sigh.

definitely not looking forward to next week.

jap quiz, assignments due date and prep for term tests.

sigh.

p/s: excessive use of 'definitely'. ah whatever.

2011-11-30T18:43:00.001+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK

today's an alright day i guess?

quite a productive day maybe(it'll be more productive if i actually start on my report)

okay i've got so much things to do.

but then again procrastination always gets in the way.

tsk.

p/s: guess who owes me TWO ice creams?

2011-11-29T21:43:00.001+08:00

omg.

this is probably one the happiest moments of my life.

Alhamdulillah for everything.

2011-11-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

at the end of the day,

i'm glad i found you.

2011-11-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

im so mad.

im so so mad at myself.

everything i do, i'm always the one to be blamed.

im always the one at fault.

im always causing all these troubles.

all these pains.

all these bullcrap.

im so mad at myself for giving up too easily.

im so mad at myself for always procrastinating.

im so mad at myself for always making the wrong decisions.

im so mad at myself for being so bipolar.

im so mad at myself for not being good enough.

im so mad at myself for venting out my anger at people who dont deserve it.

im so mad at myself for everything that happened.

idk, im just so mad at myself.

im just so mad at myself.

2011-11-27T17:33:00.001+08:00

now that i think of it,

contract management is much more worse than rebus.

enough said.

2011-11-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

Salam Maal Hijrah to all Muslims(:

Insya'Allah it'll be a much better year. Amin.

Anyway,

yesterday was probably one of the most tiring day ever.

so we had to go for this record breaking thingy.

not funny kay must do jumping jack for 3 mins non-stop. the crap?

and me, being super 'fit' felt like dying alrdy i swear(mind you i havent had my lunch yet at that time)

so yes. thank god we broke the record. supertiringlikecrap.

and that's not just the record that we attempted to break.

the other one is to suck a lollipop for 3 mins. yeahhhh ikr -.-

but then again we broke the record. :D sigh i didnt know why i attended the whole thing.

tskkkkkkkkk -.-

it's been a crazy tiring crappy fun week.

and i've yet to start on my cngmt assignment.

sighhhhhh. :/

2011-11-24T18:36:00.001+08:00

i want ice cream, cookies, cakes, chocolates and more ice cream.

ben & jerry's preferably.

oh2 i want chewy junior too.

and more ice cream.

and i want coffeebean's mocha ice blend or the ultimate.

hmm and maybe some more ice cream.

oh2 i want waffles with ice cream on top. and oooohh maybe some brownies.

and pancakeeees with pancake & chocolate syrup.

and more ice cream.

yeap.

idk if it's depression or im just pms-ing.

or both.

or im just forever craving for these sweet treats.

hmmmmm

2011-11-23T19:51:00.001+08:00

TWO MORE WEEKS :D

hi.

alright so the timetable's for term test is out.

sighhh december has always been a holiday for me leh.

i've never spent any of my decembers studying for a test.

not funneh.

but yeah what to do just have to be patient and just face it.

well just now was awesometasticbombastic.

err okay besides the fact that we had to perform on the stage with people looking.

eh alermak embarrassing okay.

hahaha. and after that, was the cupid shuffle dance.

Engine School break the Singapore Record for the most number of people dancing for the cupid shuffle dance.

it was fun and tiring. but i did enjoy myself :D

& oh, there was a free flow of popcorn and candyfloss!

yeap, its been ages since i last ate candyfloss.

yumyum! (:

2011-11-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

i thought i was strong enough for all these.

but i end up crying myself to sleep every single night.

Ya Allah, kuatkanlah imanku dan tabahkanlah hatiku ini.

Amin.

2011-11-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

"Mereka yang berjuang untuk melawan hawa nafsu karena hendak menempuh jalan Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan tunjuki jalan Kami. Sesungguhnya ALLAH itu beserta dengan orang yang buat baik".

it's never easy.

but it'll be worth it.

2011-11-21T07:40:00.000+08:00

”Tidak ada penyakit, kesedihan dan bahaya yang menimpa seorang mukmin hinggga duri yang menusuknya melain-kan Allah akan mengampuni kesalahan-kesalahannya dengan semua itu.” (HR. Bukhari)

this was never easy.

but i hope you'll stay strong.

2011-11-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

CCN day was rather fun and annoyinglyfrustrating.

yes.

okay so the first batch of ice pops were selling well.

and then mine came it was not frozen yet.(most of them lah) sighsighsigh

so yeahh tried so hard to get people to buy it.

but ofcourse i did enjoy myself so much.

hahaha. kay it was a fun experience.

so end up giving away free ice pops. hahaha

okay it was quite a success and im definitely so tired.

and this week's been a busy, tiring and stressful week.

expecting the same thing for the next weeks.

sigh such a crazy semester :/

2011-11-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

somehow my thursdays are always very suckish.

so today after a pretty long day with the facom quiz and the complicated acmv,

abang texted saying that the ice pops are all screwed up.

yes, like 100+ of them.

and to add on, dad was freaking pissed with the whole thing.

ofcourse my mood instantly went down.

trust me, when dad gets angry its like superfreaking scary.

yes.

Alhamdulillah, dad greet me home with a smile instead of the expected roaring.

hahah. pheeeeewww. everything was finally settled.

and i think left with only 80+ or lesser.

but heck. at least its all settled.

Alhamdulillah. (:

2011-11-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

so tired with school.

with the upcoming quizzes, assignments and presentations, im surely going to have a pretty hard week.

and yes today did like 200+ ice pops. its super duper tiring.

and not funny kay tomorrow is facom test ahh dang it.

i want my holidays already.

2011-11-14T21:03:00.001+08:00

will never be good enough.

2011-11-13T13:34:00.001+08:00

" the heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of "

oh hi.

i think i deserve the "BEST PROCRASTINATOR OF ALL TIME" award already.

aiya so annoying.

2011-11-12T16:35:00.001+08:00

because one thing about myself is that,

i never learn from past mistakes.

and so i keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over and over again.

yes, annoying much.

anyway, it has been a productive day so far.

2 assignments down, 1 more to go.

yeay me :D

2011-11-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

hi.

now i feel like time is passing by so fast.

quizzes are coming up and assingments are piling. tsk ):

anyway,

PSPS just now was super boring mygod.

but well the teacher talked about time and stress management. yeah i've heard about it all

like gazillionth time already. but i still am not good at managing my time.

ofcourse it's always due to procrastinations. dang it, i never learn. =.=

i need to be more self-disciplined manz. aiyaaaaaa.

2011-11-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah for the good and bad times. (:

2011-11-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

physically & mentally tired.

i hate you so freaking much.

2011-11-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

i'm really looking forward to next week.

let's just say this week has been the 'testing my patience' week.

but that's alright.

anyway, going back to melaka for Hari Raya Haji.

a short getaway, just what i need.

2011-11-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

hi.

i'm a happy happy happy girl.

(':

2011-10-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

enough of feeling this way.

the crap.

i might as well just be happy.

or at least pretend to be.

ah crap always faking smiles.

2011-10-29T14:30:00.001+08:00

this feeling sucks big time.

i'll miss you so much.

)':

2011-10-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

i'm probably the worse treasurer ever.

ohmy what happened to the freaking 5bucks. ):

haiz. i shouldnt have volunteered to be one in the first place.

just urgh. there wasnt a problem before this. why nowwww?

haiz.

and yes i dont know why but when night comes, i will always start to over-think stuffs.

anyway, idk how to survive ACMV(yes i know i keep on mentioning about this module)

but yes it's just so difficult to understand. ):

and with japanese as an extra module, i'm definitely gonna have a very tight schedule.

busy busy busy.

and not forgetting i have a cca now. why did i even sign up for it in the first place?

anyway, i just need to be optimistic about everything.

okay yes i'll survive this sem.

and oh, i get it okay. don't have to rub it in my face.

2011-10-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

ten days.

i'll survive.

i mean, i have a busy timetable to keep me occupied.

i'll survive.

2011-10-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

so i guess i'll probably be starving on tuesdays.

i swear i was freaking hungrehhh.

12-7 WITHOUT any breaks mind you.(yes ikrrrrr)

well only ate a few pieces of the chocolate cake that i brought(ate it while standing.yes WHILE STANDING)

sigh. okay but japanese class was quite fun i guess?

except for the fact that there will be projects and all. like for example the ROLE PLAY

ohhh sigh.

idk how am i going to survive tuesdays ):

but oh on the lighter note,

my maths tutor is like super freaking awesome(better than perry the platypus)

ahhhh okay i should probably stop complaining about my sucky tuesday timetable.

PATIENCE. I WILL SURVIVE THIS SEMESTER.

2011-10-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

finally i got a CDS.(and so school will end at 7 on tuesdays,ohmyyyyy)

so first day of school.

hmmmmm it was alright i guess.

okay what crap, maths like quite confusing & i just died in ACMV.

other than that, it was a pretty okay day enjoyed it!

and blame my mum's chocolate cake for making me so hyper in the morning(ohmyy the cake is so delicious i swear its super nice i like want to eat and eat and eat and eat it)

anyway i got chips ahoy from mr d! like so kind only give me that! hehe :D

well i just hope that i can survive this sem(yeah right, you nearly died in ACMV hello!!)

but let's just be optimistic here shall we?

2011-10-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

second time already i've experienced this.

it's super scary i swear.

my only thoughts was that i was going to die(really no joke)

heart beats fast, unable to breathe properly, anytime can just collapse.

anyway, school's starting tomorrow.

i'm somehow excited.(ikr, who's actually excited about school.)

i just hope that tomorrow will be a good start to the new semester.

Insya'Allah i'll work harder and do better for this sem.

must.maintain.gpa.(improve it better)

2011-10-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

i went through such an emotional roller coaster today.

dang you CDS for making me panicked like crap.

i just hope that i can get a CDS once school reopens.

and i dont know why these past few days have been so crappy.

school just start already.

i want to get myself busy with school work.

i dont even want to think about anything else.

2011-10-18T14:38:00.000+08:00

i need another getaway.

pronto.

2011-10-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

“Perasaan cinta yang lahir terhadap seseorang bukanlah tanda kita akan memilikinya. Namun kekadang ia muncul sebagai ujian dariNya buat kita, ingin melihat bagaimana kita memelihara, mengawal dan mengurusnya. Perasaan cinta itu amanah, dan amanah pasti akan dihisab oleh Allah.. Jagalah hati kamu..”

-syahirul.com [via tumblr]

hi.

so i'm back from a 5 days trip to Malaysia.

went overnight at my kampung first before heading to port dickson. ahh love that place.

to be more precised, i love the hotel that we stayed in.

even though we've been to that hotel before, we still prefer staying at it.

i just love the indoor swimming pool. awesome i tell you.

well yes i must say it was a lovely trip, having to spend time with the whole family.

well i must say i survived 5 days without the internet(ikr, it's like going for internet addiction therapy)

anyway, it'll be exactly one more week before the new semester starts.

honestly, i can't wait for school to start(well ofcourse i'm going to regret saying this later on)

but yes, i miss school. and the people. and the food.

oh oh, i managed to finish up reading You're The One That I Don't Want.

ahhh lovely book by my favourite author, Alexandra Potter.

hehe okay maybe it's time to borrow a new book.

2011-10-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Found this on tumblr. Note to self.

“Cinta manusia itu urusan Dia. Cintakan Dia itu urusan kita. Jangan sibukkan diri dengan urusan Dia sedangkan kita gagal menyempurnakan urusan kita ~♥~
“Tidak mengapalah seandainya kau tidak memiliki wajah yang cantik untuk menjadi rebutan dan sebutan ramai manusia, asal kau punya akhlak baik yang menjadi kebanggaan agama, Allah dan Rasul mu. Itu sudah terlebih baik dan amat cantik.”

—	(Siti Khadijah R.A)

2011-10-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

hi.

breakfast with amira and mahirah was very nice(:

even though i had to wait for half an hour for them to arrive.

ahh yum i really just love mcD's breakfast(or should i say i love mcD)

well yes i haven't been exercising(what's new right).

tsk i'm putting on weight. oh sigh.

anyway, i'm hoping for a safe trip to Malaysia tomorrow.

a little getaway before the new semester starts.(:

2011-10-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

i found this on facebook and wow,it's just too beautiful.(:

A Letter To My Future Husband

Peace and blessings be upon all of you ✿⊱╮

... Dear Future Husband !

I don’t want to be your girlfriend. I just want to be the one you call your wife. Your presence will give me happiness. You’ll be my halal prince charming. Riding your horse of Taqwa. Holding onto the Quran in your right hand and the Sunnah in your left. I hear you’re worth the wait, so Ill wait Insha’Allah. My heart belongs to no one, I just thought I should let you know. It belongs to Allah SWT and only Him. You’ll have to get lost in Him to find me and even then you’ll still have to rightfully become apart of my heart. Only through Him. What I’m trying to say is that WE have to get lost in Him to find each other. I hope you’re up for the journey. I know I am....

A sacrifice to be real must cost, must hurt, must empty ourselves. The fruit of silence is prayer,
the fruit of prayer is faith,
the fruit of faith is love,
the fruit of love is service,
the fruit of service is peace.

Wouldn't it be nice if I get a good-looking man, who never smoked a cigarette, who's never been in a romance-relationship like me, who's smart and is a receiver of Nouru-Allaah and not forgetting Hubbu-Allaah,and who honestly thinks this way? :-)

✿⊱╮Marriage to him is one half of the deen,
To please Allah (swt) is more than a dream.
He wears his beard for his Lord, to please and obey,
He turns to Allah (swt) for Salah at least five times a day.

He prays in the night and makes sure to wake you,
And strives during daylight to provide and protect you.
He lowers his gaze with firmness because he does not desire,
To displease Allah (swt) and face His just ire,

He asks advice from the ummah, and his wife too,
Before making decisions that he might later rue.
To his wife he is humble and always most kind,
Sharing his burdens with strength and clear mind.

He opens his mouth only to say what is best,
Weighing all options ‘fore denying a request.
He takes care of himself and family too
Knowing that Allah (swt) will see them through.

He is a pleasure from Allah (swt) above
Be thankful to Allah (swt) and His blessings through love ♥ ✿⊱╮

2011-10-11T07:59:00.000+08:00

i don't even know where to start.

yesterday was probably one of the most awesometasticbombastic day ever.

and the date also like super cool lah right. (9.10.11) hahaha okay2.

anyway, yes.

i love love love love love love love love yesterday.

thank you, you guys know who you are.

especially mr d. (:

and Real Steel is an awesome movie. and hugh jackman, oh wow meltsz!

it was a really great day.

enough said.

2011-10-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

"this time, i'm not letting go."

sleepover session at my house with hanis was awesometasticbombastic.

it was so impromptu though.

how wonderful that we slept at 5am =.= hahaha

reason: we talked and talked and talked

and yes we kinda read my blog archives last night.

like every single posts(yes, including 2007's posts. so embarrassing i swear)

laughed like crazy(she basically laughed at my typos and my super elaborated posts)

yes, you probably might have guessed which year was the 'funniest'

hahhaa. tskkk super embarrassing kay i swear.

and what's more embarrassing is that somebody actually figured out my blog url.

tskkkkkk.

anyway, i miss shaf so much.

after so long, she finally text me. awwww hope to meet up with her soon.

there's so much catching up to do.

okay so maybe i miss my secondary 4 life(okay like a lot)

hahah. gahh miss those social studies days(we talked about everything while still having the ability to write down notes and pay attention)

hahaha gahh okay need.to.meet.up.sooooon!

2011-10-04T19:32:00.001+08:00

901th post.

it's like i'm still scared of cats but i'm kinda not really scared.

but i'm still scared. you know?

i mean like i do still embarrass myself in public when there's a cat.

but it's not to the extent of crying(well at least not so much of it,i think?)

that's a bit of a good news for me,yes.

anyway, it has been a good week for me Alhamdulillah.

well okay there might be some days whereby things get so crappy.(it usually happens when i start thinking too much)

but other than that, it had been alright.

and oh, i was reading my archives yesterday.

i dare not click on the 2007 archives(okay i did eventually but a few only) because seriously i just hate that year a lot.

i mean i hated who i was that year(i know its not good to hate yourself but this one seriously can't help it).

anyway, yes about the archives.

haha gahh so many memories. but then again i realise that i don't really elaborate on things.

and i had quite a hard time recalling what some posts were about.(dumb or dumb)

tsk, it's called a blog for a reason right!

even though i've read my archives for countless of times already,

i still love reading them.

it's like my favourite past time(besides tumblr-ing ofcourse)

2011-10-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

i need to clear my mind.

too much negative thoughts.

oh well anyway,

had an awesometasticbombastic day today.

love my family to bits <3